11.05.2010

Into marvelous light I'm running...

It's a really good thing that I didn't commit to writing in this thing a certain number of times per week/month. I mean, look at me...It has been nearly a month since my last post. I guess I just knew that life would take over and keep me from writing.

This past week has been nuts. Tuesday I had my second anatomy lab exam and today, in approximately two hours, I have my third anatomy lecture exam. Needless to say, studying for those two things plus trying to stay on top of my biology homework has not proven to be an easy task. This semester is taking up so much more time than I expected. To be honest, I kept saying that I knew it would take a lot of commitment, but in all reality I don't think I was really aware of what that entailed. 

It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel sometimes. While at work I sit at my little post at the main entrance, greeting people and wondering why the heck I'm wasting my time doing something that doesn't have anything to do with what I really want to do with my life. During class I'm surrounded by all these 18 year old freshmen and I just want to break free and fast forward three years. Then I remember that to get to that place a) I need money in order to get to that "something I want to do with my life" and b) it is going to take a lot of learning, patience and gaining experience before I even come close to being ready for where I want to end up. 

And here I sit, as usual, at my kitchen table pounding away on this keyboard when I should be going through my notes for the last few times that I can. I guess I just needed this little break to work through all these thoughts and clear my mind to allow for focused attention on the task at hand (that being cramming as much information as I can in the next hour before time for class). 


"...lift my hands and spin around...see the light that I have found...oh the marvelous light, the marvelous light..."

NPR