11.05.2010

Into marvelous light I'm running...

It's a really good thing that I didn't commit to writing in this thing a certain number of times per week/month. I mean, look at me...It has been nearly a month since my last post. I guess I just knew that life would take over and keep me from writing.

This past week has been nuts. Tuesday I had my second anatomy lab exam and today, in approximately two hours, I have my third anatomy lecture exam. Needless to say, studying for those two things plus trying to stay on top of my biology homework has not proven to be an easy task. This semester is taking up so much more time than I expected. To be honest, I kept saying that I knew it would take a lot of commitment, but in all reality I don't think I was really aware of what that entailed. 

It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel sometimes. While at work I sit at my little post at the main entrance, greeting people and wondering why the heck I'm wasting my time doing something that doesn't have anything to do with what I really want to do with my life. During class I'm surrounded by all these 18 year old freshmen and I just want to break free and fast forward three years. Then I remember that to get to that place a) I need money in order to get to that "something I want to do with my life" and b) it is going to take a lot of learning, patience and gaining experience before I even come close to being ready for where I want to end up. 

And here I sit, as usual, at my kitchen table pounding away on this keyboard when I should be going through my notes for the last few times that I can. I guess I just needed this little break to work through all these thoughts and clear my mind to allow for focused attention on the task at hand (that being cramming as much information as I can in the next hour before time for class). 


"...lift my hands and spin around...see the light that I have found...oh the marvelous light, the marvelous light..."

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10.17.2010

The starting line...

I decided to create this blog a while ago. I'm not exactly sure why, maybe just to jot down some thoughts here and there or therapeutically ramble on about everything that swirls in my head, but nonetheless, here I am. I really want to say that I'm going to write an entry every day, every week, and so on and so forth, but let's be honest here: probably not going to happen. 


This is just my little corner in the big world to talk about this journey that I'm on. And when I say journey, I am indeed being all ambiguous and vague and just referring to life in general, because my life is always changing (along with those of everyone else in the world). I mean, look at me: I'm 22, smack dab in the middle of my second year of marriage (to a very dear and sweet man whom I love, I must say), going back to school as a non-traditional student with hopes of becoming a nurse, and every day I'm just trying to figure it all out. Oh, and I love running, too, and I often use baking as a coping mechanism (i.e. when I want to ignore things that I just don't feel like dealing with right at the moment), I've given up on giving up coffee (LOVE it), and sometimes I just gotta belt out showtunes in my car when nothing else in the world seems to make sense. 


So, here I am....at the starting line. This place is around the corner each day, waiting to surprise me with a sudden curve, uphill, downhill, and smooth cruise. All I have to say to that: bring it on.


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